A thought that refused to disappear

Starting a blog isn't hard. But deciding what it should be about, why to write it – and especially for whom – takes more than just technical skills. I sat down at my computer and gently touched the keyboard. Without holding back, I began writing. I asked myself who I really am and what my true purpose might be. My mind flooded with thoughts of unfulfilled dreams, staying too long in the comfort zone, and doing work that brought me no joy.

I kept asking: Why should I start a blog again? What's the real reason? These days, blogs might seem a little outdated – after all, most people prefer audio and video content. But it’s all about perspective. Today, I see blogging as a way to express myself, to find calm, and to gain depth for my future projects. Whenever I’ve quietly promised myself something, I’ve usually delivered. And because I want to follow my dreams, I’ve decided to become a blogger – for real.

Let’s rewind for a moment. My first blogging attempt was back in 2012. I created a simple website and occasionally posted a few thoughts. But that was it. I’ve always been the kind of person who gets excited about new projects, only to drop them before they take off. I lacked discipline, lived unhealthily, drank, lost motivation, and spiraled into dark thoughts. I was trapped – and it was a trap I had built myself. More than once.

Up to 2018, I went through a lot. I got involved with the wrong crowd, accumulated debt, struggled with alcohol, and had complicated family relationships. That year ended with a night I won’t forget – I was heavily drugged. It was awful and disgusting. But I truly believe: you can rise from anything. Around that time, I started dreaming about a blog where I could share my thoughts like a journal. And for a while, it even worked – I had 300 followers on Facebook. That was a big deal for me.

But mentally, I still wasn’t okay. I isolated myself, didn’t care about anything outside my own bubble. I lived in the past, not the present. I deleted my blog and social media accounts more than once, only to come back after a year – over and over again. A constant loop. Years passed like that. I created drama in my own head – but that was my reality.

One thing was always true: even as a kid, I wanted to be part of something bigger. And outside the blogging dream, I sort of made it. From 2016 to 2024, I worked at Nestlé in Olomouc – one of the world’s largest companies. Eight years. I worked my way up, earned respect, and had ambitions to go further. But I realized I was living in constant stress. I brought work home, my personal life suffered, and I was mentally exhausted. When you work in a place where fear is used to control people, where politics matter more than values, you find out even the sweetest chocolate can taste bitter.

But let’s shift the tone now. I have to thank God that I met the most amazing woman on my journey. As they say – behind every man, there’s a strong woman. We connected after the COVID crisis. To be honest – I was an idiot back then. But she’s incredibly patient and strong-willed. She saw something in me. She never gave up.

2024 changed everything. After a surgery, I made up my mind – I would leave the Czech Republic. My girlfriend was living in Katowice at the time, and then she got a job offer in Warsaw. I didn’t want to lose her. I decided to leave my comfort zone. I quit my job, paid off some of my debts, stopped drinking, quit smoking, started taking care of myself – and jumped into a new adventure. Starting over in a new country isn’t easy. One of my best friends told me that I made a good life decision.

I found work in a small family-owned business near Warsaw that makes nut butters – so I stayed in the food industry. We found a lovely flat, we have benefits, and Poland is a beautiful country. I’m starting from zero. I stay in touch with my true friends and my family. I have the full support of my partner. That gives me strength. And as the title of this article suggests – A Thought That Refused to Disappear – the blog idea never really left. It stayed in the back of my mind. I started wondering how I could turn my mistakes into meaningful lessons.

This blog isn’t just about me. The idea came back when I started thinking seriously about my life’s direction. I’m not an expert. I’m not a guru. I’m someone who wants to learn. And the ideas started flowing. I truly believe it’s worth sharing the journey. And blogging is the way I’ve chosen to do it.

I want to build a community where we can talk about things that matter. I want to write about what I love – travel, good food, creative projects that deserve more attention. I want to combine my food industry experience with a dream of starting my own business. The message is simple – I want to be myself, stay open-minded, and keep growing. I have a goal. And I’m going after it.